Little E is starting to point. His little index finger is the most adorable thing I’ve ever seen. He’s almost 8 months old, and one day last week, boop, his little finger isolated while the rest curled, and he was picking, pressing, and pincering, just like that.
Having kids sometimes make you feel like you’re at the zoo, watching zoo animals, all of the time. (Our house looks like a monkey pen, but that’s another story.) I sit and watch, sip my coffee, and marvel. “Wow,” I think, “that is amazing.” Amazing how the body and mind can “just do” things, all of a sudden, just like that.
“So what new things has A learned lately?” (By lately they mean these past 6 months-ish. Or more. Or less.).
I pause. I tap my chin and make like I’m thinking, even tho I already know the answer. I try to actually think of something, wanting to take this one last time before speaking to see if I can squeeze anything out. “Hmm,” I say, to buy more time.
The therapist and/or nurse and/or doctor waits, pen to paper.
“I can’t think of anything,” I say, frowning.
What I mean to say tho is that I can’t think of anything that words would describe, that you could write down. I can’t think of anything “significant”. There are obviously new things because we all have new things, every day. Maybe today you finally learned how to spell “occasionally”, or realised what a “drive belt” is, or found another useful use for baking soda. If I sat in a room, non-verbal, and someone looked at me and tried to answer this question, they wouldn’t know I knew these things, that I learned these things recently. There is no nicely packaged response that says, “well, it is inevitable that constantly her brain is being enriched and progress is made as a result, whether or not it’s visible, indefinitely. So, yes. But I don’t know what.”
I don’t know what A knows. I hope someday I will learn, though. But I know there are things. He hasn’t figured out how to make his fingers point yet, but he’s busy figuring out other things. I’m sure of it because it is what brains do.